Wednesday, April 21, 2010

213 words

everbody seems so rushed lately.
people set themselves goals.
the more aspiring actually attempt to achieve these goals.
and in that sense, have a sense of bliss upon achieving them
whatever they may be

Myself, on the other hand
i have no goals, no aspirations.
allthough i feel like im going nowhere in life.
i wouldnt give it up, for i feel like im carefree.

allthough its getting harder now.
schooling is pushing me to push myself
and the reality of reality is bearing down on me.
but i still feel like i dont need any of it.

i feel sorry for the people who are always "looking" for something.
i guess its only human for someone to always seek for something.
but allthough i try to escape from reality
i know enough about reality too understand, that we are all human.
our mistakes, our thoughts, especially our feelings.
feelings, for example, love.

people are overun by this.
it changes people in every single way possible.
their prioties, decisions, the will to live.

i know enough about love to not be afraid of it.
but i still run away from it. ive grown cynical of it.
i guess ive grown tired of the typical teenage routine of it.

but we are all human.

face first

sunrise. sunset.
burn away the detriment.

Friday, April 16, 2010


all my friends drowning at sea, everyone except for you and me
and they'll at the bottom, with anchors tied to their feet
with all that love their hearts will sink, and theyll be at the bottom.=
i think ill take the long way home, i suggest i sit up straight, i suggest i straighten up and get out.
you know i wont mind, if the curtain falls over you
no i wont mind, if the curtain falls over me too.

Monday, April 12, 2010

shitty days in portland

im sick of loneliness.
but i know i cant cope with the stress of a partner
im way too lethargic
i wish i was not so difficult to maintain.

depression seeps its way in, again.

Sunday, April 11, 2010


we are all tied to insecurity.
seeking for an escape only to that insecurity.
if we didnt have insecurity, then there would be no means of misery

it sure as hell aint normal but we deal.

Monday, April 5, 2010

we dont sell to minors"

how do kids even know what to write about anymore.
we think we're living our lives as adults live theres.
we absolutely beleive that we should be trusted
in that sense as, being trusted with strangers, parties,
underage drinking, the time we're told to be home,
we think we're smart.
our own little bullshit stories we make up 5 minutes before we walk in the door to our worried mother.
blaming the can of alcohol and cigarretes on our older siblings.
we try to grow up so fast.
where adulthood is a drug, and is made legal to 18 years and over for a reason.
once we grab a taste of this, nobody can stop it.

it is a disease which ruins young ones hearts
sends them into a deep whole of greed, hatred, and then depression.

we think we're ready.
we try to grab hold of as many aspects as possible.
but we are only ever fooling ourselves


through my adolescence, ive realised, everything is so "on and off"
ive caught myself sticking to one thing, for about 2-3 days.
then completely disbanding it and going onto something else.
much like a miniature phase.

i hate growing up
id litterally give up whats left of my childhood to be at least over the legal age of 18 years old. At least then id have the right to do as i please.